faith baby.

gone are the days when i blog regularly.
diary is now a white elephant.

listening to one of my favourite scores, by Alan Silvestri (think Forrest Gump), and it never fails to make me feel at ease (not to mention set me into emo mode).
reminds me of Forrest’s innocence, determination and amazing spirit, wish i had his attitude.
haven’t had some me-time in a while, finally a night for me to just think about… well stuff.

while this journey hasn’t been the easiest, i’m glad i’m experiencing it.
i won’t say it’s forcing me to ‘grow up’, but it’s definitely making me a stronger person.
i’ve always been a strong believer of – things happen for a reason, and that you are your life’s own catalyst.

sweet success i’ve had, but recently i feel like i lost that drive, that hunger…
i am on a desperate attempt trying to search for it.
and i know i am slowly gaining that momentum, i just need encouragement and motivation,
but i just feel stuck sometimes, especially when you keep getting put down.
i don’t need no comparisons, i am my worse enemy after all?

anyways it finally came… the excitement quickly died down.
it was long due and i know i deserve it.
on to the next phase – i know i gotta prove my worth before i get ousted.
i have faith in me.
don’t you too?

status quo?

i haven’t really had the time to sit down and pen my thoughts.
been too caught up in life’s hustle and bustle.

each time i browse through Steve McCurry’s gallery i feel a sense of blessedness.
photographs that depict disaster and pain, makes me realise how fortunate i am and also makes me aware  that life is more than what it seems.
makes me feel that age, can be a beautiful thing too.

i’m into my 3rd month at work.
and while it hasn’t been all that easy, with a few tears shed and a coupla sleepless nights,
i know i’ll eventually get there.
nothing you can’t accomplish, with what your mind sets you to do.

am planning a trip this year end, to Hong Kong!
i am still in disbelief that my parents have given me the go-ahead
but with my confirmation pending, i don’t wanna get too excited.
although i think i am.. shopping for winter wear already, not that HK’s winter is mad cold, but hey 4degrees is good enough to get me freezing.

i hope my next entry would a congratulate note to myself.
give myself some credit, and perhaps a pat on the back

everything lumped together!

oh my word.
i didn’t realise it’s been almost a month since i last blogged here!
i’ve been blogging on a different ground
i’ve got a makeup blog, so i don’t bore you people with those makeup related ramblings

well well, a lot has happened the past few weeks..
where should i start..
right, so i turned 23 about 3 weeks back!
had lotsa fun with boo, friends and family,
went to Universal Studios and had a blast there!

i went for 4 interviews, all of which i got called back for second interview..
got rejected for the first 3, and was totally demoralised and disappointed…
and then i went for the forth, with no expectations whatsoever, i thought it’d be another case of disappointment.
so i didn’t dare have high hopes, and after being interviewed by four individuals…
i’m glad to say… I’M EMPLOYED !!
after 3 months of enjoying !
so happy for myself, but at the same time am really nervous..
what if i can’t perform well, what if what if what if!
i’ll try my best nonetheless.
thank God for all the great things that has been happening.

went on a shopping rampage for formal clothes today,
and i shall continue again tomorrow.
spending money even before work starts, but oh wells.

i haven’t being doing my movie reviews because i’m so lazy!
Karate Kid, Predators, Twilight: The Eclipse, Toy Story 3, Nanny McPhee 2, Inception, The Sorcerer’s Apprentice.
don’t know if i missed out any lol
Inception is a must watch !!!
i can’t be bothered to do all those reviews at one go,
will try updating more often,
although i think once work starts, i probably won’t have the time.

in the meantime, i will be treasuring my last week of break, before work offically starts

attempts.

things have been going so well,
so much so that i assumed that whatever comes my way, will be mine.
guess this time i’ve been proven wrong.
no doubt i feel dejected, but it’s all part of the game right – rejections.
sure it sucks, but i’m already looking on the bright side of it all,
maybe God has something better in store for me? no, no maybes.
quitting is out of the question, when the tough gets tougher, it only makes you stronger, right?

for now i will continue the search,
and pray that Friday will go well.
else.. i’ll just keep trying?

new phase…

so just a coupla days back,
received a letter in the mailbox from SIM,
congratulating me on completing my degree program.
3 years just flew …

i’ve been sending out  resumes furiously,
cos mom (and dad!) has been pestering me day in day out to not ‘laze around’.
so.
i’ll be going for the second inteview tomorrow.
the first one was about 3 weeks back,
i got tricked into going for that one!
thanks to the vague job scope description mentioned over the phone.
okie maybe not exactly vague… misleading !
so that’s out.
i dare not pin high hopes,
if i get it, it’s a bonus, if i don’t, life goes on, and i’ll keep searching.

i’m just a lil scared…
changes changes!

A Team

A Team : 3.5 / 5 stars

initially – wasn’t too keen, cos the plot seemed similar to The Losers.
i didn’t even know it was a popular series in the 90s, till boo mentioned!
but hey, Bradley Cooper’s starring in it, so =)
and yes, i did enjoy it!
super intense with twists and lotsa action bang bang bang!
the loony in the team cracks me up!
catch it

A Team

The Killers

The Killers : 3 /5 stars

i’m a huge fan of Katherine Heigl !
and no, i don’t watch Grey’s Anatomy lol
anyways, i thought the first half of the flick was pretty exciting,
till the second half, when it got a tad crappy cos everyone suddenly became an assassin.
got a coupla laughs from this one, but i’d say skip it,
cos there are soo many better flicks coming up !!

The Killers

reality check.

is this really happening?
i have a serious case of paranoia, SOS!
i think i’ve logged on to the student portal like about 20times now,
to check my results,
to make sure they don’t change, to make sure my eyes aren’t playing tricks on me.
i’m just really puzzled, i left out 40marks worth for my Investment exam,
how on earth did that contribute to a Credit? all i prayed for was a Pass,
which would have already been a miracle.

the Sunday before the week of the release of results,
i knelt in front of Him, i prayed as hard as i could,
i thought about who i would be letting down, if things didn’t go my way.
i knew i’d be devastated, but i’ve always believed that everything happens for a reason.
if things happen this way, good or bad you may perceive it to be,
it’ll always be good, cos at the end of the day – God knows what’s best for you.
there i prayed, there i knelt.
i didn’t realise i was putting my waterproof mascara to the test,
till i saw how i wet the bench with my tears.

indeed, it pays to Believe, to have Faith.
i’ll never forget what boo never fails to tell me,
do your best, and God will do the rest.
amen.

can i get an Amen!

just two days ago, i was dying from all that anxiety, all that anticipation, all the crazy thoughts of what might happen!
and thank God, for yesterday was possibly one of THE happiest days of my life!
i received my final semester’s results, and Praise the Lord, I HAVE GRADUATED !!!
it really is a miracle i passed my Investment module, more than a Pass, a Credit!
boasting i am not, still pretty much shocked. Prayers work, they really do.
am looking forward to our convocation in August
it’s been a long time coming, so much hard work, blood , sweat everything!
i am truly proud of myself.
felt like the shortest 3 years of my life looking back on it!
i couldn’t be more blessed.

now it’s all about welcoming the next phase of my life.
a lil apprehensive, a lil lost.
but i’m taking baby steps, one at a time.
time will reveal what God has in store for me next!

all i can say is, Life is Good

nerves.

right now, i’m a huge nervous wreck, because the results will be released later today.
i don’t i can fall asleep without tossing and turning for at least an hour or so.
anxiety attack! what’s new.
ever more so this time round because it’s the determinant of my graduation,
and my attendance for my convocation come August.
Lord, please be with me, let me complete this, please.